So because of someone named Mina, I am now actually working with trying to figure out OBS ?_? . It’s not going great guys. BUUUUUT to flash a little hint of what we were trying to get work before LAG took over.
Figuring a funny Intro video before we get into all of the other stuffs?
I’ll Be There For You – Bon Jovi
So you may have noticed everything has been silent then like 12 things at once appears? The reason is sort of 3 fold. (1) I am returning to school soon and have a SHIT-TON of last minute to-dos ( to the point where I can’t even joke about it). (2) Because life – all of my tec related stuffs around me keeps consistently and MAJORLY breaking. (3) The anxiety of returning back to school has me SHUTTING DOWN.
I’ve never understood how physical fears I can sort of handle (like crises and clowns), but emotional anxieties have me shut down in a corner. Can’t move, think, even breathe sometimes. And let me tell you… returning to school has me in that state.
I lost my pride and confidence to Ankylosing Spondylitis and this struggle to get it back isn’t a sign to me I can return to school and be a proper student again. If I have always been the smart one and my struggle with things like just the chronic fatigue and memory fog is enough to make studying seemingly pointless at times, then what am I anymore?
I just feel so shaken, y’all.
Whom Shall I Fear – Chris Tomlin
Everyone likes to say raising children and being a young family in New Money South Florida is just one of those things that happens, because it it is a good environment for it. It’s not. Raising your child in that environment is one of the worst things you can do! Trust me, I grew up in Boca Raton, been to most of the schools and have 2 relatives in the Education system. DON’T DO IT. It’s not worth it in the end. TRUST ME. The things I’ve seen, heard and experienced would make some tv shows about American teenagers and their lives look understated.
That being said, every once in awhile you meet a family that somehow is keeping everything right. Today I got to have a conversation with one such a family. To think the lesson of Be Kind survived in their children. In the entire family! Furthermore, even though the youngest daughter is having problems in school with making friends she’s ACTUALLY a happy, hopeful and full of SMILES! IT’S REMARKABLE! !!(⊃ Д)⊃≡ﾟ ﾟ
To those of you who don’t know the area, let me tell you this is on the same level as the rarity of… Well, anything that’s ever been rare basically. It just doesn’t really happen here!
I feel so blessed and happy to have been able to witness it. It sort of gives me the tiniest sliver of hope for humanity again. And to be asked by their family to continue to be a role model for the kid and help make her laugh… Bull shit or not, it kind of makes my heart flutter in ways I forgot it could.
Please don’t ruin her wold and let her keep these supportive parents!
One Tribe – Black Eyed Peas
I’ve been wanting to say this for YEARS :
Benihana’s SUCKS. And let me tell you why. First off, for a Japanese restaurant there’s barely any “Japanese” meal choices on the menu. And yea sure they are a Hibachi resteraunt, but even your hibachi doesn’t really resemble “Japanese-American food” anymore with your stomachache inducing garlic butter bad BBQ. Secondly, every time I am forced to go to one they are out of something important. Like 1/2 of their Sake menu or Tamago! How does a Japanese restaurant run out of Tamago? Let alone a restaurant run out of eggs!?!?!?! Plus. there is no actual Japanese desserts on the menu. For an over priced restaurant there should be SOME authenticity to the actual cuisine you are trying to represent in the slightest. Mad props to the owner/creator of Red Flower, becauseyou managed to seel 1/2 ass over priced food to a bunch of dumb Americans who just want large portions. 凸ಠ益ಠ)凸
And even though I don’t find your restaurant worth it all, I am still forced to go because you have brainwashed my Aunt to require her birthday there EVERY YEAR.
Your Japanese birthday song and Ramune Soda ain’t cute. So over it,
Benihana – Trey Songz
So there has been this trend in Tv shows lately with introducing characters to JUST DIE or making a deal of sadness and death in characters’ lives. But let me just say this : FUCKING STOP IT! RIGHT NOW! I don’t know if it is because of GOT or what, but my achey breaky heart can’t deal with it. Stein’s death in Arrowverse crossover, redemption death in The Gifted…. The entire collection of sub-points of This is Us! Juuuust stooooop it ( I cry enough)….
A very teary eyed,
Don’t Fear the Reaper – Blue Oyster Cult
I sort of understand the plight of translators more and how it makes it harder to actually write for yourself. I’ve always done quick translation work for a few easy $$, but now that I’ve been on such a Fan Fiction binge my mind is only full with how I went to finish those specific pieces. But I’ve been too busy to sit down and complete them, so I haven’t been able to clear my head at all. I can’t sit down and write anything original now. (´Д｀υ)
No time. No room. No brain power.
Fan Fiction Song – Megangore
- Kids are tiny Satans
- I still want tiny Satans, just not the ones I babysit
- When tiny Satans hug you you forget for a moment they are tiny Satans, but then they fracture your finger and your eyes bleed
- My mother doesn’t respect me as an adult at all
- My mother’s inability to admit wether or not she likes me is a tell tale sign we have issues
- I understand my mother’s issues with me more…
- But because it’s her issues with me #sorrynotsorry
- I love my mom…. *deep deep deep down*
Sorry Not Sorry – Demi Lovato
“I promise this is not a post about how it is a fact that commercial Thanksgiving has effectively destroyed for an even bigger more obnoxious commercial Christmas. It isn’t a post about the atrocities of settlers on Natives. Nope, it’s not about any hard to accept truth. It’s just about a girl who needs to complain.” — Disclaimer
I will be the first to admit that I wasn’t feeling the holiday spirit at all. I mean family can S-U-C-K… But, I was looking forward to the feast that was Thanksgiving!
The universe, however, was looking forward to SERIOUSLY fucking me over. I know I need to move past my issues and accept my new physical limitations, but this was just BULLSHIT.
To wake up on the morning of Thanksgiving with Oral Ulcers (tiny blisters). I mean let’s just FUCK IT ALL Universe. I don’t even see a point in challenges anymore.
Thanksgiving Song – Adam Sandler
Let me just say this Marvel : You really have stepped up your game. Maybe it’s because of that Disney $$, maybe you just learned what you needed to do. But you’ve gone and done it, because I can’t stop crying. I WAS NOT PREPARED FOR THIS WEEK’S EPISODE. At all… I mean I know the characters comic book history, so I should of been able to guess something as the show progressed….BUT I CAN’T HANDLE YOU HAVING AN OLD MAN WHO MADE SOME AWFUL CHOICES FOR ‘THE BETTERMENT OF SOCIETY AND HIS FAMILY” ATTONE BY SUICIDAL ACTIONS. I mean he fucking saved his family. He let them know what was going on and he explained why he was an ass to his son. That he regrets taking away his powers… (In season 2 come up with a way for him to get it back ok)… MARVEL I CAN’T HANDLE IT. I come from an emotionally broken home. AND you killed both him and Pulse. WHY. WHYYYYYY. I mean can’t he at least meet his grandkids, or something. Also maybe give a better explanation of what his powers were and why they worked against Pulse? Ugh, just stop tearing at my heart strings, because it’s not prepared. OKAY!?!?!
Praying the Runaways will not do this too me,
P.S. I know if it follows the comics it definitely will…. UGH
P.S.S. Are we possibly going to see a somehow surviving pair of old relatives?
Blood – Allison Moorer